A little tipsy and heading home to El Paso for Christmas.
Set up an IRA for myself for the new year! So excited to be responsible for myself.
Trying to get in to the holiday spirit and not just hate on everyone. Felt alone at work though when the whore and her minion did their best to push me aside. I barely cared because I only worked 3 hours today.
So confused about my coworker. What does he want? What does he think? Why do I care? Seriously, why the fuck do I care? Pathetic.
That seems to be the word that I always use to describe myself. Pathetic. Pitiful. Lame. Weak. Fat. Loser. Stupid. I want to be better than who I am right now.
Ordered my transcripts for my first semester of grad school so I can transfer to NYU. a 3.9 is pretty good I guess.
Damn I feel so torn between being my badass bitch self and being sweet and cute and lovely. I think the cute sweet shit aint working. I guess the big old, bad black chick is coming back and never leaving again. i'll never be the sweet charming girl you bring home to mama. But I will be the bitch that makes your life worth fucking living. never a dull moment. Even if we get shot in the process.
6:11 p.m. - 2010-12-23
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