Hmmm, how do I feel today? Slightly tired. Stressed from work but not too bad. Unmotivated to workout but I did a bit of toning this morning. I need to tie my working out to overall health and happiness and not looking hot for some guy. The starving and b/ping is all me. The exercising is all them.
Let's see Omar also told me I was much skinnier in high school but I'm more toned than when i first started sleeping with him in February. So sweet *rme* seriously? I love hearing about how fat I was and how you noticed and I'm still not as thin as I was in high school. No wonder I didn't want to fuck you. That was like 5 minutes into your visit.
My coworker is not constantly referring to me giving him a special present in the bathroom and other nonsense. What is it about me that makes me so susceptible to guys trying to screw me? Even if they have girlfriends. Ridiculous. I should think I'd feel happy since I love attention from him, but it makes me tired.
Things are going well all-in-all I guess. I need to start on my NYU app. I've started saving money to move finally. I'm in better shape and doing well at work I suppose. I am finally feeling the numbness I always craved. It feels like depression at first until I realize that nothing is truly making me upset or even mad. I just feel nothing. Even drinking isn't as much fun.
11:41 a.m. - 2010-12-22
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