So far with my 1900 refund I have put $500 in savings, bought new contacts, bought a plane ticket home for Christmas ($203!). I will next buy clothes that fit and new shoes and a Halloween costume. Then my spending orgy will be over I think. Maybe some white or some green (herb) but those make me feel sick and fat so maybe not.
I've been working pretty hard today and haven't even had time to apply for jobs or anything yet. I ended up buying lunch which will be lunch and dinner as I have saved half of it. My favorite sandwich ever from Murphy's Deli. Spinach and Swiss on a pita, baked lays and a chocolate chip cookie. They come in packs of two and I always give my coworker the other one. he greatly enjoys it :-)
I plan to eat the rest and drink my wine tonight. Or some of it because I need to not drink too much. I'll be at 847 cals without the wine so I kind of want to skip it. Haha like I have no choice, so sad. I might just drink and purge it. So I can have a real binge and enjoy myself. I can only puke these days if I stuff myself. I've killed my gag reflex. Almost 17 years of purging will do that I guess. Just typing that makes me so sad. What a pathetic life I lead.
I wanted to go to the gym, but I'm not paying $25 a month for it. I would do yoga but I'd rather watch TV and do my toning and stretching exercises. One more day of Level 1 and then I'm back to Level 2 of the 30-day Shred. I WILL make it to Level 3 this time! I feel like I might be strong enough this time.
3:49 p.m. - 2010-10-28
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