150.0.
I couldn't lose one fucking 10th of a pound so I could see the 140s again? What the fuck stupid fat body. I hope if I don't eat any more today I will be under 150 when I get home tonight.
Omar is coming to town today. I am excited and nervous. I have lost 23 pounds since I saw him last. I am still a fat nasty cow though. I hope seeing him puts my coworker out of my mind for good.
He has started acting normally again. After shunning me and being mean to me for the past few weeks. Basically I have had to kiss his ass this entire time so that he will talk to me. Ridiculous I know but I have become strangely codependent.
I need to stop doing so much drugs. I am going to just stick to weed from now on. I am super broke. I tried Ice for the first time and fucking hated it so much. It is gross and smells and burns my nose. Fuck that shit. It did help me get down to 150 after being 160 on Friday. I barely ate Saturday night and didn't eat Sunday and barely ate on Monday and Tuesday. But it was not worth it and I hate it. I really just want some adderall. I think I might actually need it because my lack of focus is terrifying some times. I got more work done the past 2 days than I did last week.
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