2nd (3rd) entry on the day:
wooohooo off to NYC in 3.5 days, I am psyched! I miss living there more than I can even describe. There is nothing for me here: no men, no money, no leads, no good job, nothing. I have a few friends that I adore but they can visit me and vice versa.
When I was in NYC I would walk everywhere and I was fit. I am a blob of fat and indecision now.. I didn't used to care whether men liked me or even whether my bosses did. I feel I wasted the end of my 20s here, time I will never get back. BUT NYC us supposed to be better in your 30s so we'll see.
I had surgery recently and they gave me vicodin and darvocet. I am one of the few drug lovers that hates painkillers. They scare me and make me nauseous. I have taken more of the "mild" painkiller than the vicodin because it works better for me. The only good thing is they kill my appetite. I guess I am too loopy to even try eating.
Omar (HSguy) is supposed to come in the next few weeks for more sex. Great! I was totally into him, then I hated him, now I don;t give a shit. My life is like Ke$ha's song "blah blah blah" Just give me the dick dammit!
9:25 p.m. - 2010-02-16
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