I reeeaallly wanted to drink today. It has been 6 days and I haver lost 4 pounds as of yesterday. I should end the week under 175 if I am lucky.
I am so fucking fat it pisses me off. I quite purging and replaced that with drinking and now I have nothing but fat and more depression.
I can;t go back to purging because my teeth and gums are messed up. I go to the dentist on the 28th so I will try to fix them as much as I can by then.
I am strting to get some traction on this examiner.com thing. I sent out my articles to some bars around town and I have an interview set up for next week with a local bar's corporate office. I am scared haha. It;s been forever since I did a proper interview.
I am also supposed to start some other part-time work so I hope to have some money coming in soon. I have sold some of my beloved used books for money. I might start selling plasma too. I am desperate!
My goal for the end of August is 165-160 if I am lucky. The first few pounds are easier if you are fat like me and I have been working out a lot so that will help. I can;t wait to drink again next month. I hope this lowers my tolerance too. It was getting way too high.
6:49 p.m. - 2009-08-06
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