I am full on depressed right now. Tears forming in my eyes. Days seem blurry. A lack of meaning or approach.
I thought I was going to die last night. All of the drinking and purging finally taking it's toll. My adbomin pain was intense. I ate but couldn't digest anything, so I purged and it hurt differently. I drink far too much. I couldn't breathe. I prayed that Iw ould make it through the evening os I could start over. I must stop the drinking. It is the only thing I can do to help myself right now. The food normalcy and the weight loss will have to follow.
My left arm is weak but I will survive.
7:39 a.m. - 2006-12-11
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