I am so lame with the lack of updates.
I am still over 160 lbs and it is driving me crazy. I have been working out at lunch and doing my yoga and Pilates but I eat and drink too much still.
I bought a new pair of pants last week and busted the ass of out them on Friday. Not all of it but the pocket area broke. In front of my friends and it was a tad embarrassing. My anorexic guy friend who knows about my bulimia got drunk, grabbed my stomach fat, and laughed. Motherfucker. He is super skinny of course and it makes me feel like shit. I have been trying not to purge but it's hard when nothing else is working. I haven't eaten normally in so long.
I made a Match.com profile today. I haven't paid to join yet I just wanted to see what it's like. I am tired of going to bars and (gay!) clubs, which don't help me meet normal straight guys at all obviously. I am talking to one guy but he doesn't have a car and I don't even have a license so that's not going to work logistically.
I have my goals for the rest of the year and they include loosing 20 pounds. That is about 3 lbs per week, which isn�t horrible. From there I will see how it goes. I guess it�s time to start making sacrifices again. A little hunger couldn�t hurt, right?
2:11 p.m. - 2006-11-19
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