I got a job working as an event development assistant at our local PBS affiliate. I started on Feb. 22 so I am quite pleased. I am doing an ok job considering i have no idea what I'm doing. I like it here though and i hope to stay for a while.
I has about a week of purging every day. So bad of me. I also started smoking cigs more. I bought a pack after 2 months of randomly bumming off of people. I havent done any drygs at all though and i don't plan to ever again. My need to be in th FBI is more important that getting fucked up. I think I've honestly outrgown that phase.
I've been longing for a boyfriend recently. I've only had one ever and he barely counted. But i just know that i'll get hurt, and it seems that no one wants me, even losers who live at home with their parents and are 27 and have no degree and barely work 10 hours a week and drink every day. And are fat. Yeah, I'm not bitter.
I need to stop eating out everyday and being a pg. I am back up to 150. What the fuck is my problem? I have wanted to be 125 for my whole life and I can't seem to let myself get there. At least I get paied next week. I can buy Sudafed and carb cutter pills and yummy food to microwave at work. And I can pay my enormous bills and start to get my shit together.
4:23 p.m. - 2005-03-03
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