Ugh I have some kind of rash on my face and neck. So damn itchy. I need hydrocortizone (sp?)
I am still at 145. I had a sandwich for breakfast: 2 egg whites, cheese, tomato and mayo on an everything bagel. Trying not to eat lunch cause I am going out to dinner.
I purged last night. On porpose completely sober. It hurt so bad. My chest hurts today and I'm scared. I was doing so well. I had only purged twice in the past few months. I have to stay on track. I want to look at myself in the mirror and be proud. Thin and toned, but still with all of my teeth intact.
Mt skin is so gross. I look like I'm 35 years old. I am tired of being called "ma'am" I need to buy some skin care products as well. I also need to drink more water and take my fucking vitamins.
I am feeling very asexual lately. I prefer to fantisize about people I will never meet to keep myself from being interested in anyone I could actually obtain. I am cornering myself off form the rest of the world. I run away every chance that I get. And now, I'm starting to not even care.
12:43 p.m. - 2004-08-20
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