So fucking tired. Work is draining all of my energy. I want to go to bed at 10 pm and I think i should to prevent anymore eating. I am on the rag which meand binge binge binge.
I worked an extra hour today cause we are so behind in the processing room. We have only one copier for the hundreds and thousands of copies we need to make.
I am sick of everything right now. Something insode of me snapped. I odnt care about hanging out with frieds or being loved or ever being in loved. I dont care about communicating or experiencing life. All I will do is work, save money, pay bills, diet, exercise and sleep. Responisiblites. Everything else is meaningless to me now. I have been binginging and purging everyday for a week or so. Eat or dont eat breakfast, it depends, eat lunch, come home and b/p. Thats my day. Today I am not b/ping since the food I have left is shit. I go shopping tomorrow. Need food. All of my clothes are too big for me but my stomach is huge from b/ping and my period. I look and feel like shit. No breakfast tomorrow. 3 or 4 cups of coffe plus my pills. Salad for lunch. meeting a friend so I must eat. Then food shopping and either a nice healthy dinner or b/p the night away.
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