I'm having a gard time controlling myself foodwise. I am constantly hungry, never full, I eat and eat and eat. But I will stop now. No eating until tomorrow, I must be strong. Getting back on track again.
I went to my first yoga session yesterday. 90 minutes long. I loved it. next saturday is pilates which i can't wait for. Finally I am doing somehting right. I disgust myself with my fatness. Why I cant be stronger is beyond me. Everyone is so much lovelier than I am. Its so much harder for me. My stomach is the worst but now my thich are spreadin as well. Grower closer andf closer together. I think I'm going to start purging again. Its so hard though, espeically with my roommate here. He thinks I'm thin. he is a liar I must say. just makes me want to work harder so that i'm not living an illusion anymore. hope all is well with you out there.
6:41 p.m. - 2003-07-27
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