Back again. I just can’t stay away. I miss my girls. My 90s DL crushes. They’ve all gone away or locked their diaries to prevent prying eyes. I lived through them. Breathed with them. Loved them in my own way. A part of me is gone now. They helped make me who I am today.

And who am I? I have an OK job. Pays well (6 figs) but doesnt fulfill me. People my age are doing so much better. I just turned 39 and I am single and fatter than I’d like to be. Living along (by choice) but also a bit lonely. I am a bit of a mess. I drink every day almost. I also try to work our every day. I’m trying to make new friends. I just joined some dating apps. Most of me doesn’t care but I know I should.

I had a job interview today that sucked. But I have a job and don’t care really. I am taking my time to find better. I suppose I should find someone as well. What do I even want anymore?

6:31 p.m. - 2019-10-08